Hi liljobi, I'm so sorry to hear of all you've been through. It's not right that someone who was supposed to protect and care for you became your abuser. It's not right that this monster took away your innocence. Has he been prosecuted? You seem like a very resilient and strong person to have gone through so much and still be positive.

As far as finding a therapist that you are able to work with through the long haul, you could start by reading about how to find a good therapist. Very good information here on PC. http://psychcentral.com/find-therapist/ Once you find a few therapists you might want to work with ask them if they plan on being around for a while for the reasons you mentioned then take it from there when you go to interview them. I'm sure you'll find someone that can work through this with you and help you tremendously with your healing. I wish you all the best.

Be well and take care,
bl