Hi, SilasGabrael!

Based on the information you've revealed here and on your profile page, I believe it is more likely you will find sympathy and helpful counsel/therapy outside your family than inside it. Additionally, competent counsel will try to appreciate your depression and personal struggles in the greater context of your family rather than focusing on you alone. That is - and I'm probably stating the obvious - your "problems" don't exist in a vacuum; they at least in part reflect the peculiar dynamics of your family.

I wish you well. Your search for goodness is noble.