
Jan 31, 2010, 01:51 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2008
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Originally Posted by hangingon
Mel,
I can so relate. Lately, I can barely sit down to watch a movie, things that never disturbed me before really get to me now. I would watch the craziest movies and they would never bother me, now even simple ones affect me, it's rather strange.
I literally had 15-20 minutes of balling in my last session. I had no idea it was going to happen. I felt nauseous and told my T that I just needed to lay my head on the arm of the chair for a minute. She told me that I could get the pillow and lay down on the floor if I wanted to but I stayed in the chair. All of a sudden the tears started coming, and I couldn't stop them. I hid my face behind my arms and just sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. She was really great about it and being there for me during it because she knows I try so hard to hold my feelings deep within.
The hard part was she asked me what I was feeling, if I could use words, and I couldn't, I couldn't tell her anything because I really didn't know.
I have never really allowed myself to feel my emotions before, now they are starting to show, kind of scary but I am sure healthy in the same sense.
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hi hanginon! i have missed you. good for you for feeling. i hope to get there one day.
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