I first met him six years ago. I was nineteen, he was thirty five. Married with one child and I was married with one. He was a cop, I was a criminal. Not his criminal but just the same. I fell in love with him in the late hours of morning as he pulled a 7 to 4 overnight and I would wait and walk the streeets for those brief moments of conversation, making me feel connected and as if I belonged. I left my husband, his wife got pregnant (he still is unsure if it is his, regardless...) and eventually I moved away and contact became less and less frequent. Until about six months ago where we rekindled our friendship and after six years he finially got it that the erotic stories and poetry I gave him was about him. We had never touched up til this point. I always fantasised but never dreamed it likely. I respected him for his morals. But....(of course).....then something came about and the first time ever I was invited over while the wife was at work. And we got intimate soon after. (much to my surprise.)

He has never liked his wife, not in the six years prior to this not now. If I believed otherwise I wouldn't have the problem I do. I know it was very very wrong and stupid to get involved with a married man and yet well, love works in mysterious ways. His wife is off for sugery having carpol tunnel and that is six weeks.....so no affair for six weeks....I broke up with him, if that is possible....I can't borrow what is not mine to keep, I want everything he can't give...........He tells me to be patient.......I know he is not using me, I know that this could possibly work............but six weeks.....and if ever..........my parents have been miserable together for thirty one years, well maybe the first few years were alright we will give them credit for that, but looking at that and my married man, I have to wonder what makes him think that he will really leave her no matter how miserable he is.............

I need help! I don't want to stop talking to him. I don't want to discount him totally from life. I wouldn't mind waiting a few months, but I don't think I can go much longer. Statistically Married men don't leave their wives do they? I am thinking if I don't see him and possibly don't talk to him it will be more of an intuative if he really does care. Otherwise i dont knwo what to do.............please help............what .....feedback.......

Thank you