Zoo,

It was very overwhelming. I cried and cried, I ended up pulling my legs up and curling them into the chair as well, and even began shaking. I don't even know why but that's when my T came over to me and asked if she could touch my arm and was saying that I was safe, she was right there with me...She was really great about it.

She kept reinforcing that the things that happened to me were not my fault ect. She had me try to look at her because I had my face buried the whole time, I was finally able to after I stopped crying. I shed a few tears when she was right there looking at me and talking to me but not like i did while my face was hidden. I felt very safe with her when she got down on her knees on the floor next to my chair and was chatting with me, she had me squeeze her hand and look at her, as well as around the room so that she knew I knew where I was. She said that it was really good that I let go some with her because I work so hard at not crying in front of her and have even shared that with her in the past that I hold back hard like that.

I think it's different for everyone, it just happened. At one point I even had to tell myself the heck with it just let them flow.