i've been doing so good for the last several days. the only thing that i can think of that brought this about was...the time with the internal child, and continuing to try to give it.

thing is, i know i'm going back to t tomorrow and have to discuss more yuck again. worried i won't be able to pull back again...like i've been doing for a while. it scares me. i'm not too eager to give this up.

however, i'm going to try to give time after therapy to whoever needs it. i don't know how i will, but i'm going to try and see where it goes from there. i can't stay in ugly places with ugly feelings 24/7.

so, please wish me luck and hope with me that giving time will work, and that upset insiders can "look at today with me" will help us to be ok when t is hard for them/me? today is pretty good.

thank you

kd