i feel in my gut that he will go back to normal one day. i don't know if that means we'll be together or not, but i have hope.

i believe one day he'll be willing to get help. i don't know when that will be, but he has had his moments where he has told me he needs help. i know i can't make him get help.. i wish i could, but i can't.

i think knowing why he gets like that makes it hurt less and makes it easier to wait for when he is willing to get help. i know it probably doesn't sound like a good idea to continue to deal with that sort of behavior, but i love him so much i'm willing to do it. i'm trying to get medication for my anxiety so it won't be a problem either.