I am a guy so no need to listen to me, but I would avoid the hook-ups. If you are afraid of this whole business the only way out of it is to be meet a guy that wants to be with and be friends with you and encourage you to understand him, and you to encourage him to understand you. If it is the other way than you will most likely regret it. Meet someone in a postive way and stay with that positivisim until it reaches that point of severe intimacy because it will be a memory that won't go away all to quick and wouldn't it be better to have it with someone that you trust.