Risie, if people are saying that you are always in the way, then it sounds like it's their problem, not yours. No one can be always in the way. I know, I tried as a fullback in soccer for years.-) Lynns lovely post had a lot of good things to say about deciding to treat yourself the way you would treat a friend. Somehow, we get all screwed up about hwat loving ourselves means, and think it means being egotistical. I call it being realistic. There is no way you can be the only person on the planet worth nothing, ergo you are worth something. And if so, worth the same respect you would give anyone else. HUGGS hon. It's a tuff ol'disease and a liar as well.