My life is like an ongoing soap opera that never goes off air.It's constantly going wrong from not having my daughter ,to being alone,being completely unable to trust anyone or anything in this world.Sometimes I just feel like tossing it all in ,but i could never do that to my baby girl.But it feels so unbearable sometimes.I have a big problem with sex it's like I can't stop I do it even when i dont wanna .My mom is a pill head who's always stealing from me ,hell she stole pain pills from me right after i gave birth to my daughter,What kind of mother does that?? And she's partially the reason my daughter isn't with me now.And yet I'm stuck here living with her because I'm such a hopeless loser and can never stick to anything long enough to get anywhere.I am constantly thinking about just crashing my car into tree or light poles or running in front of 18wheelers but i know I can't and it's a living hell feeling this way because I know it's not right i'm not suppose to feel this way it's not normal.I am such a wreck.I swear i feel like i havent had a stable moment in my life.I'm constantly being screwed (not literally) or screwing over someone .It won't stop I can't stop because I can't trust anyone to actually be true to them because i have no trust in them i think they're probably planning on screwing me or playing me in someway so I might as well do whatever I want.I've been like this for so long and it's driving me crazy.I don't wanna be so messed up.I am so lost and alone in this world.