need support so much. My T didn't help with the fb i had because of what was read here. We're so apart. The one who survived the beatings was never present in t. or anywhere - i didn't thik she survived. It was a shock to see her and feel her and know her history.

T wasn't impressed. He said that he's a contractor- he helps if he can and he wasn't able to help.

We're lost.
There's so much paian about learning the past events and about who we are now. T brought up names of my part's friends and it was so upsetting to think that it was true. We're in shock.

Please, is there a way to live with knowing this?

i'm in a library somewhereeee, i can't go home like this- i can't resume my life like this. T can't help me.
He doesn't know how to help.

tears,
kerria