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Originally Posted by NitaLife
I know exactly how you feel and have been through the same thing with breakdowns, etc. Lexapro can have a numbing effect, which is why it's good for anxiety, but not so great at times for severe depression. You may want to discuss this with your psychiatrist. I can totally relate to apathy, especially since I'm going through this right now. I am totally numb most of the time. The only time I'm not numb is when I'm angry because of how horrible my life is. I hope you can find peace and a new reason to go on. I'm looking for the same thing.
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Yes - anger is the one thing I can feel. It's usually not related to any one person, event, or thing. I usually don't know why but it permeates the entire day - noises, movement, voices, personal issues, world issues, and everyone I meet irritate me. It might be my shoes, a belt, etc. It may sound funny but that's how it goes each time. It's like coming off a drug.
My rational mind knows this isn't normal but it's not something I can talk myself through. I don't feel violent or anything like that. It's an internal frustration that wears me out by day's end. I avoid people so I don't make them miserable.
I know this may be tied to depression and I've learned plenty of strategies to use for such times. But they just don't work.