My personal experience has been one of retreating from the world. I found it very hard to make new friends let alone a life partner. The few relationships I did have before the one I am with now didn't last because I lived in a space in my head. My child's mother said she would have rather been cursed at than be completely unacknowledged. She said she at times wondered if she existed because she would say something and I wouldn't respond. Not so much as a nod of the head or looking away. My thoughts raced so fast and my depression was so deep and my grandiose delusions of being the next great novelist or musician though I did nothing kept me so preoccupied that I disappeared almost. I got to be so comfortable in there and used that as a coping skill for so long that I still struggle to come out so to speak. So I guess I chose myself over the others. I have been fortunate to find someone that I connect with and trust enough to make the effort to not live there anymore, though I retreat sometimes.