I wonder if maybe apathy is a transition from depression to a more normal living experience. I cant help but to wonder if my apathy at times is a defense mechanism against the overwhelming pain I experience. Its like sensory overload and the system just shuts down. I try to use that disconnect to work through some of those issues that are other times too much for me to deal with. That's my cycle anyways. There is a serious downside to it though. It does have a tendency to make me feel lonely and that I can't relate to people very well.