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Old Feb 03, 2010, 06:51 AM
SidneyS SidneyS is offline
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Hey, i really need some help from people who are a bit experienced. I am in love with a really wonderful person for about 3 years now and things are going gr8. He is really kind, understanding, supportive and fantastic human being. And he loves me more than anything and i love him the same way. When i met him i was more frivolous, foolish and immature. He has helped me a lot to become confident, in a way he is just about perfect. I am saying all this because i want you to understand the feeling m going through. You see, when i met i never told him anything about my past relationships although i was a virgin. It may not seem like a big deal to some but the fact is he does not know and we share everything and i know everything about him. He often takes pride in the fact tht we know everything there is to know about one another. I never told him anything in the beginning coz i thought the past wasn important as i love him now, but he doesn think like that. He's a lil possessive and he says tht it makes him feel special tht i ve never really known anyone before him. Wht i had before with people wasn even remotely close to wht i have with him but if i tell now after all this this time he will feel tht ive been hiding things and wont trust me and create a rift. I cant lose him and i feel guitly and selfish at the same time. I feel like m breaking his trust. When i ask for advice, all i get is 'forget it' or 'stay away from him , he sounds dangerously possessive'. I cant forget it. The country im from is still conservative. There r some who, like me, accept todays way of life but not my fiance, he is still old fashioned. And he's never hidden anything from me. He doesn know ve been intimate with a couple of people although i din go all the way. I cant tell him coz it'l break his trust. Ive tried to tell him once starting with a few hints and i couldn stand the hurt tht crossed his face when he found tht i was hiding sthn. Then i withdrew and told him it was nthn important. I dont know how to feel about the entire thing. if someone really knows wht it feels like to find the person whom ur going to live with the rest of ur life and know tht uve to hide sthn, ul understand.