I am 45 and getting it together too, studying like Junerain and yourself and in recovery and finally getting the proper treatment for my illness, so I am hopeful and optimistic. But as Holmes says its the journey and not the destination that is the most interesting and it is so true, I have come a long way but I have a long way to go yet, which is in a way exciting to me as one thing I have learnt in life is how transient it is, nothing remains the same. Good luck with everything, I wish you the best.