That sucks, Salukigirl. As I am reading this I cannot help but hope you are not pregnant (from that other post...). I have had a bf that was really very similar to what you describe. It actually got to the point to where I would literally not speak for days at a time just to keep from having to listen to him criticize/complain/make fun of me for whatever it was that I said. I mean it was a constant fight, unless I gave in and ignored what he said or did or else I ended up apologizing when he clearly was the one who did the crappy thing. I guess the point of me saying all of this is that we broke up and I felt such intense relief after a few days of not having to squelch myself constantly. Is there a friend you could stay with for a few days or something? Maybe if you could spend some time away from him you can better evaluate your situation and decide if you are doing what really makes you happy.
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