i just feel like rubbish. i feel so inadequate up against all these other people, and like my life is going nowhere. i'm an art drop out, and i'll probably drop out of media studies when i start. while everybody else is learning and doing essays and getting somewhere in life, i've been told to put a rabbit in a box and keep it there for as long as possible - which i am unable to do. it's ridiculous, i just wish i was somebody else.