How do you seek help, when you're both a minor who's socially reclusive and reserved?

It frightens me that I am nearly 17 years old, almost considered an adult by legal terms yet I feel no more mature or sane then the stricken and destitute 12 year old middle schooler I was.

I've fought a slew of emotions, most of which make me feel either anxious, depressed, suicidal, or a vicious amalgamation of all three. I've found it so hard to reach out due to my reclusive nature, my upbringing, parents, culture, friends...etc

But I've had enough of this, I've had enough of living a life of **** that could of been otherwise. I've had enough of my regrets of my lost adolescence or my damaged future. 5 years of struggling and 5 years of permanent psychosocioemotionalacademic damage is enough...I don't want this to continue, and I know that if my willpower is all that is left to hold back the flood then it will continue.

So denizens of PC...what do I do?