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Originally Posted by shezbut
((googley))
If you haven't already, you may want to try writing in a journal. That can help a lot to let your emotions out freely. Without judgment, let those thoughts and feelings out. You can then review it, to see what your main issues are, to discuss in T. Just an idea. It works for me.
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Shezbut-
Thanks for your post. I do a lot of journaling (especially-maybe only when I feel really bad). It does help me sort out what is going on. Right now I do know what the most pressing issues are, part of the problem is that dealing with them in T is bringing up lots of bad feelings inside.
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Originally Posted by Junerain
Can you find a T you're more connected with?? I am sitting here listening,,feeling your pain with you For it is my pain also  |
Junerain, Thanks for your support. I do connect with my T most of the time. We are just in the middle of a rupture that has now lasted for a while since I missed session last week to travel for my grandpa's memorial service. I go see her again tomorrow so hopefully it will get straightened out. All the stress added up just becomes overwhelming and feeling that I don't have support IRL makes me feel lonely.
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Originally Posted by Rohag
((((((( Googley! )))))))
I think you have been struggling for a long time, yes? As strong and persistent as your feelings are, they have not prevented you from making progress. That is a testimony both to your own strength and to the feelings' lack of substance.
Yes, you do feel awful. The awful runs deep and may follow you no matter where you go, or whom you see, or what you do. Your many friends here would love to be able to reach into your soul and remove the awful. Unfortunately, we can't even accomplish that on ourselves. Perhaps the best we can do is affirm you, assuring you your struggle touches us, that you are not alone.
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Rohag-
Thank you. Your words always bring light into my darkness. These feelings come and go. And while I know that I will reach a point where they will once again recede, there are periods that they just feel overwhelming. I hope it is okay that I come and vent here. I feel so limited in my ability to talk about these things IRL. That people don't understand or that I can't talk about it because of my personal situations, it wouldn't be appropriate. Otherwise I wont talk about it, if it isn't okay. I know it will go away. But it seems overwhelming when I can't talk about it. I don't want it to seem like all I do is complain. I don't know anymore if it is okay to vent here.