It sounds like you are too busy judging your success by others? That was a big problem for me and still can be. Two of my brothers are in careers with very good salaries and here I am on disability trying to stay afloat. But part of getting better is learning that just because my 100% doesn't equate to 80k a year doesn't mean I'm not giving a 100%. The important thing is to do the best you can (and forgive yourself when you make mistakes). Maybe once you let go of the competition you can start to be more aware of what you have done and are doing. Thanks for sharing.