Hey Saluki,
I'm really sorry you're going through this. Don't feel bad about posting about your boyfriend -- that's what this forum is here for. For people to talk and vent and get support when they need it. No need to apologize.

I kind of agree with perpetuallysad. Maybe you need a few days without him to kind of clarify the situation for yourself. Part of me actually feels extremely guilty when I read your post, simply because I'm currently in a loop of treating my poor boyfriend really meanly lately. That's my own issue, and I don't want to pull away from your thread, but I know with myself... I love him so much, but right now, I have other things going on in my life that are stressing me out. And this isn't an excuse, but he's the closest person to me and I feel the most comfortable with him, that I find myself.. showing my true colors to him.. when he has done absolutely nothing wrong. Like your boyfriend, I feel extremely guilty and upset with myself at having caused pain to the one I love. Perhaps your boyfriend is also really stressed about something. Does he know about the pregnancy issue? Is the upcoming move not sitting well with him? Is he simply have trouble adjusting to the fact that he is growing up and getting ready to start his own family and life beyond the comfort of others taking care of him? If this is a relationship that you feel is worth saving and working on, perhaps couples counseling is in order? Is he open to the idea of really working hard to make this relationship succeed? I feel like he's trying, seeing how you said you made such a break through, but perhaps it will just be a slow push and pull process, and maybe he just needs some extra help (therapy wise?). At the very least, I believe that counseling might be able to help him with communication -- which seems to be the main issue you are having.

I don't think you should feel bad, though, if you think it is over. There is nothing wrong with getting out of a relationship if it is causing you harm in anyway -- and if it is taking a toll on you mentally/emotionally, then maybe you should get out, so you have time to heal a little before you move for grad school. Be strong, the decision is yours, and we want you to do what is best for you. We support whatever decision you make, and will be here to listen to anything else you need to vent about or discuss.

Best wishes, and I hope everything turns out well for you,
Ro