Hello, justlost. What a horrific discovery. I hope soon you are able to sort out emotionally what you already logically know: You are the victim. You have no role in what happened to you other than as a victim.

I expect your mother will be a harder issue to deal with. I suppose a process akin to grieving will be part of your life. I hope your therapist is able to expeditiously move you forward.

Good luck.