This morning everything is not any different- the part that T drew out is still here and it feels horrible.

i'm so devastaed by my T. He chose the time yesterday to talk about how he can't help me "If you don't like what you get- that's it. Find someone else."

Why do i always have everyone desert me when i'm in trouble?

i have to quit therapy- there isn't any inside and outside support. T can't even help me in the place that he made me come. He's not a good T because his goal is getting people to know parts but not helping them live with the effects. my life is so much worse now. i never want to go to therapy again.

i don't want to go to work everyday but now it feels impossible that the work person would come. i wish there were somewhere safe to go. everything that's wrong is in me. i'm panicking because it's living with my parts that's the nightmare. i can't live with myself.
my family doesn't understand. T doesn't care. i'm so angry with T for getting me to this place and then telling me to find someone else if i don't like it. It gives me fbs being in this trapped situation.

(((Petunia)))
(((Ozzie)))
(((Kimmy)))
(((Sky)))

i don't want to be myself anymore. Before i could justv say i hate my parts
now i hate myself.
tears.