Wisewoman. Take a moment and a few deep breaths.
Have you talked to your supervisor about any of your problems? Not in a way you would with your T, but just letting them know what you are going thru?
When I was at my worst and ended up in a PHP program before I went I talked to my boss and let them know what was going on. I was amazed on how supportive they were and how supportive they continued to be.
I don't know if you feel comfortable talking to your super, but at this point it can only help you.
This is just my thoughts. I wish you well and will hold you in my thoughts. ((((((((HUGS to YOU))))))))))