first things first. i gather from your last response that you're upset that no one answered immediately. i'm sorry. people come and go..work, eat, go to the bathroom, leave the house, etc. don't take it personally, if you don't get an answer right away.

i can't comment on the OCD. but i don't think that you are a loser. i hope that your T can help you with it. i've had different degrees of being obsessed with things that i did, but it always happened when i was really, really stressed about something.

hang in there, xoxox pat