I am glad not sorry in the slightest that you are so
beset by your realizations.Be courageous.
Everything is just so terribly hard at first.
---------------ESSENCE OF HAPPINESS-----------------------------------------

The way to experience ultimate happinness is to let
go of all worries and regrets and know that being happy is the most satisfying of life's feelings.Reflect back on all progress in your life and allow the positive,creative and joyous thoughts to outshine and
overwhelm any sorrow or grief that may be lingering there in the recesses of your mind.Knowing that disease and disaster are natural parts of life
is the key to overcoming adversity with a calm and
happy spirt.
Happiness is wait there in front of you.Only you can decide whether or not you choose to experience it.
Take this to heart!
Toshitsugu Takamatsu
Togakure Ryu Ninjutsu 33rd Grandmaster