I just want to say I can relate and I wish I had the courage you do at your age. You are incredibly articulate, in touch with what you are dealing with and, in the forum have strong communicative skills. Sometimes sharing those feelings with others in a less vulnerable capacity, i.e. here, you gain the awareness and initiative to take the next step. I agree with, the idea of, getting help from the doctor that asked if you were feeling okay. Please let us know how things work out.