It's scary sometimes, when you start looking. In our family there is odd stuff all over the place, and for years my husband's family, maternal and paternal, has always claimed that it is all of us inmarrieds that are dirtying the line. Now we are more aware of the family (thanks to a maternal second cousin) and a scary patern of homicide and suicide, schizophrenia, and "pathologically shy" people starts to emerge. I only deeply regret that I learned all of this, including my own diagnosis, after I myself started to have kids.