Thank you all for the encouragement and insights. I do not want to go the medication route because my T and I both agree that in my situation - even though it may be more difficult without medication - I NEED to work THROUGH this stage. It really is the trauma work stage. Uggggs. I am afraid if I medicate, that later on I will still have unresolved issues. And just like you said Pom, it is really getting to the root of what is going on inside. Not easy and for sure not fun. But something needed.