Jodi, I understand your pain and sadness. It soon will pass. It jumps out of nowhere in to all aspects of your life. You think everything is going smoothly and then for unknown reasons you are right back in the pain, but in different circumstances. Simple things that we should not sweat at all, become bigger problems. What an emotional rollercoast for us. I too am a survivor also. Abused by my grandfather and my brother. You are in my prayers for guidance and strength to show you back to what you call normalcy in your life. Take care, jen