Monsieur-

I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I was about your age when I first reached out for help. It was really scary. I didn't know what to expect. I didn't know who to ask for help, and I didn't know if I was going to be able to feel better. And my depression didn't help these worries at all. I spent multiple years before that in pain thinking that I could fix myself and then feeling like nothing would ever get better. It takes a lot of strength to ask for help. Realizing that you need help is the first step. If you ask for help you should make sure that you feel comfortable with who you are working with. Don't settle for the first person that comes along if they are not right for you. I did because I didn't know what to expect and didn't know how to speak up for what I needed. I was just happy to have someone to listen to me. So I guess the summary of my ramble here is that you are really strong to ask for help and keep asking until you get the help you need. Your doctor sounds really great. I hope if you start therapy he is able to give you good help in finding what you need. Take care.