I must say I really can't blame anyone who doesn't understand us and just can't hang in there during the struggling times. Those of you who have husbands and boyfriends are blessed. I have been alone romantic-relationship-wise for almost 4 years now since my finance met someone else and quickly married her. (We still work at the same place so it was not a fun time to say the least). Anyway, I only push people away when the darkness swallows me up. I totally want to be alone then and sleep as much as I can. I drag myself to work but try to keep to myself there as much as possible. I have some great friends who don't ask anything of me when I "go away" and welcome me back when I am better. They are essential to my wellness. Yes, I know, I am blessed too.