Thank you both, Erin and Erin.

I've decided I need to start journaling to help me get through all of this.

I'm afraid to open my mouth for fear that the wrong thing will come out (it always does when I'm dealing with this jerk). If I keep my mouth shut, I'm being uncooperative. It's a no-win situation right now because I don't have any coping mechanisms in place to help me speak to him like a calm, cool, and collected human being.