Hello all, I'm just trying to find someone who has gone through a loss like mine. In March it will have been a year since my best friend died. We knew each other for 7 years.

I met her after I moved to another state because of my parents divorce. She was the first girl I sat by on the school bus. Being the "New Girl" I really clung to her, she didnt have alot of friends either. We've been BEST Friends ever since. Even after high school, we got our first apartment together, worked together, did everything together. I believe we were the perfect picture of BEST FRIENDS.

Last year she started to get sick, lots of crazy symptoms and then she was finally hospitalized for 3 months. I saw her everyday. She was eventually so bad that I had to clean her up after she used the bathroom. I never thought I'd have to wipe my best friends bottom, but that really showed me how close we really were. I would have done anything for her, and I did. Luckily, we were both nursing assistants after highschool so because of that I got to do alot more with her while she was in the hospital, and believe me the hospital staff LOVED that

Anyways she finally was hooked up to life support and passed away. Not even an Autopsy showed why she died. The only guess the doctors had was it was Auto Immune related. We're talking about a 20 year old girl, gone for no reason. It blows my mind and makes moving on very difficult.

Anyone else lose a best friend? I can't even seem to let myself get close to any other friends this past year.....I just don't know what to do......The only comfort I find is knowing she believed, I was the one that invited her to church for the first time, and I'm glad I did. God I miss her and I just need a friend, so I don't have to Cry Alone.

Thanks for listening