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I want to point out first that I support gay rights and my own brother was gay. Usually if someone has homosexual thoughts I would encourage them to accept and explore. You do mention you're not happy and these are obsessive thoughts, so this is why I'm speculating you probably aren't homosexual. I have dealt with this before in the Q&A section, where a person had OCD and kept obsessing about taboo thoughts --the poster was worried she might commit incest and then worried about being homosexual.
It's good you have an appointment with your doctor because only they can diagnose OCD. If you actually have it - it's fairly common to have obsessive thoughts about what would be taboo to you(not to others). You can solve this question easily - what sex have you been attracted to since you were a kid?? To answer your question - yes it would be normal to have the thoughts decrease - because now you know the thoughts come from an illness and doesn't represent your true feelngs or intentions. The best way to handle unwanted thought aside from taking proper meds, is to recognize they're there, but don't react to them. Recognize, filter them and don't worry. Keep up posted and please let me know how the doctors apppointment goes. Good luck.
*I want to emphasize that I normally wouldn't encourage a person who I felt was actually truly gay, to repress or deny their feelings.*
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