((((((((((((((((((nolongersane))))))))))))))))))))))
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so badly! I've done the exact same thing you describe doing in the bathroom- holding my head and rocking back and forth, forcing myself to breathe and telling myself that it's okay and I'm safe. Wanting to cry and not being able to.
Why do you think they'll lock you up for depression? How could there be a forum for depressed people with active users who are depressed if everyone who suffered from depression got 'locked up'?
Hang on. Keep coming to PC. We care about you.