Okay, I don't normally go into detail about this kind of thing online. I am a very private person in regards to this kind of intimacy, but for the sake of trying to clarify what I feel about the process. Being sexually intimate with my wife is a process about her and I. Since, I tend to be concerned about her more then myself and making sure her needs are met. That she knows I find her beautiful and that I want her to feel wanted and to make sure it is a satisfying experience for her the act becomes more about her then myself. She doesn't make it that way I do. I chose to validate her when we are intimate so there is a degree of psychological disconnect there due to my making sure she is feeling good about our... well you know. Then you add the fact that my medication and I am not the kid I used to be make it hard for me to... well you know. I have no resentment about any of this. I want my wife to know she is just as important in our intimacy as I am and she has never been validated that way in past relationships. So occasionally when I need to, I take time to make it about me. I don't do it it often because I find that it makes it harder to finish when I am with my wife but sometimes I need to take the time to myself and tend to needs that i don't quite get met in my wife and I's intimacy. So now that I have shared one of the most intimate parts of who I am for the sake of showing that it can be a good thing let's (that is to say with me about this in the future please) not talk about this anymore lol..... How about that Super Bowl coming up? Go football!!!