((((googley)))) I know that feeling of waiting for T to call back. You're doing great so far! Keep breathing, keep telling yourself to not do anything until you talk to her.

googley, you are important. You deserve your T's attention and help when you need it. She wants to help you at times like this.

I also know the feeling of thinking I'm just looking for an excuse to SI, or looking for T to tell me something I already know. Don't worry so much about what you're thinking right now, don't get too caught up in those loops of thought. Distraction sounds like a good plan.

Please be safe