I am so glad you're posting here, Googley...and that you reached out to your T. I can soooo relate to almost all of what you're feeling. It all has to mean something, especially when others can relate. I wish I knew. *sigh*

Please keep posting. Whatever you're feeling, get it out here....and keep yourself busy....I am hoping T calls you back soon so you can get your feelings out and work through them....