Awesome quote Byz. I am posting it on my mirror and giving thanks for each new day. I am sleeping well so that is a great help. I wake refreshed enough to give it another go.

Thinking less as victim today I am remembering my talents and giving thought to how I can use those talents to get out of the hole I find myself in. I have cleaned up my studio and pulled out some fabrics and am thinking about what can I make with all the boxes and shelves of supplies to sell. People are always asking me if I am still designing and maybe its time I think of myself as a designer again and see where it takes me.

I may also be able to take in a border. At first I was shocked with the idea of someone coming into my sanctuary but hey.... what has become an automatic 'no' in my life these last few years perhaps could be a pathway out. I was also asked if I would like to spend a day or two a week with an old woman (for pay) just to keep her company and do a few house chores. My first response was no way could i do that. I am too afraid of meeting new people. I couldn't commit.... blah blah blah but then courage found a place in me and I said I would give it a try. My friend is going to recommend me so maybe that will be something good for me to get me out of the house. I do love hanging with old people.

I need to give myself the change to do the things I did before I let this illness stuff turn me into someone else. If I want my old life back I need to step out of the life I am living that is all about being sick and a victim.

The light is on today. Even the garden is giving me ideas of enterprising. Maybe I can sell some of my abundance of plants. I usually give a lot of them away as I thin things out and divide them up... maybe I could pot them up and take them to a flea market. Nice to be thinking of ways to make my own way. It feels more empowering to remember that I am not without talents.