((((((((((( Jodi ))))))))) I cried reading this. Not pity for you ... but with you.
Your deep pain. I am so so sorry you were hurt by that coward. He does not even deserve the title of a man. Just a coward. Just like my father - a cowared.

(((((((((((( big safe hugs )))))))))))))))
We understand "broken" inside and that feeling that one is so lost in this world without meaning. Maybe if you know you are not alone .... maybe like me it will help ease the darkness just enough to let you smile a little.