((((((( big safe googley hugs )))))))))
It is always hard when we think we are asking too much from T.
But the fact is that they want us to rely on them when we need them.
today you need your T and I do hope thatyour T calls you back. But I am certain that your T will do what is right to make sure you are ok as soon as T can do that. Sometimes they do go on hikes and might not be in cell coverage :-)

Bottom line is that you are healing and doing what you need to do. Please do not feel guilty one little bit. Even for what happened with T. That is a part of your internal growth. When a baby is learning to walk, do we get mad at them if they fall down a few times? NOPE! Be gentle with that wonderful self of yours. You are very much loved here on PC and I am certain by your T as well !!!!