I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Reaching out on here is a great step! Recognising when you need help can be difficult and I know I had trouble seeking help for years.

I went through a similar situation during my high school years. In the end, my breakdowns/episodes became so frequent I never could find somewhere to hide - It would happen in front of everyone during class or during lunch breaks. So in the end, my grade co-ordinator, deputy principal and school counsellor forced me into counselling which I ditched in the end. I wasn't ready to accept help and having the situation lead me into help in that way didn't convince me to get help either.

So I hope with the support of some of us here or friends you have at school, that you'll be able to see a doctor or counsellor. Even try one of the hotlines if you're not ready yet for a face-to-face thing. You're not alone and once you take that dive to see someone for support like a doctor, you'll feel much more in control, the weight of it all will lift and you'll get through this. *hugs*