I'm safe today.

Had a bit of a scare yesterday. My boyfriend needed alone time and it's becoming a trigger for me. So I woke up feeling rotten and had a bit of a spaz out when I didn't have his company so went for a walk without shoes or my glasses down a kind of busy road. I wanted to find birds to watch or something. ><

Now we worked out that he needs to tell me directly ' i need time alone' instead of just having it to set my paranoia at ease. So now I can stop being a pain in the arse and he knows I'm having trouble with control at the moment.

Frustrating being this unstable. I keep thinking I should go down to the hospital. I rather not though.