i didnt really read the responses, so i am sorry if i repeat what others have said before me.

my best friend wes came out as bisexual when we were 15. at 16 he came out as gay. no one even suspected it. i, too, had the BIGGEST crush on him. at first i was hurt because there i was, always there for him. i always thought we would end up together, as dumb as that sounds. when i realized there was no chance, i felt robbed of an incredible opportunity.

well, i turned out okay i am sorry you are feeling so bad about this. you really shouldn't. you arent a hypocrite or anything of the sort. and how great that you have a place like this that can be a place for you to rant!!

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