talking to someone, ANYONE, will help, i promise you that. five times i have seriously thought about "doing it," and two times i actually tried. those two times were during a period of my life when i had no psychiatric guidance, i didn't have an outlet (like this site or a personal blog), and i felt completely abandoned and alone.

please dont feel alone. keep putting your feelings here if you'd like, but if you are serious about getting better tell someone close to you. you are less likely to hurt yourself if someone you know and loves knows about your intentions beforehand. not that i think it will come to that, but that has just been my experience.

PM me anytime, day or night. i'd love to chat or just swap war stories. anything to distract us from what we are feeling.