I've been very dissociative lately. I haven't been feeling much like my mind is here. This is how I have been trying to cope with this on my own. I try to avoid everything to do with it and everything that reminds me of it. But this way, you have to avoid so much. So much that you just feel zoned out all the time. Many times, I have no thoughts going through my mind at all. I went to see a counselor in September. He thought I need to be able to look at the trauma as if it was in a jar and I could just put it back up on the shelf whenever and not have the terrible feelings with it. Since, I didn't have much time with him, because I was on vacation at the time, I never really went into much detail into my story. And he didn't think that I should have at the point, because it may have brought on many feelings that he wouldn't have been able to help me learn how to deal with. And didn't want me to go out on my own with that. Since, I don't transportation and there is no public transportation and the city I'm currently living in, I don't think that I can receive mental health services at this time. I have been trying to get into public housing since May 09 and I had to reapply recently. The place I'm living in now will soon be foreclosed and at the moment, I don't know where I'll be going, but I have been hoping to move to the city, where there is a bus to provide me with transportation.