Sending you lots of cyber hugs. The panic and anger came back because finding out your friend was seeing him brought all that stuff back up. A normal reaction to an abnormal situation. Keep posting sweetie. I am so proud of you for persuing this legally. Your "friend" will find you told the truth the first time she says no. You have done everything humanly possible to stop this guy. Can't stop karma...bad judgement call on her part. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.