Thank you all for your kindness. I hate sounding like a whining brat here...but sometimes I swear there is now other way to express it.

Thank you so much LadyDragus. I was actually quite nervous, and feeling stupid for posting this blurb on my current life situation.

...some of my distress is coming from money, is my worst enemy right now...I can barely pay for college, and I am almost positive that I will have to drop out next semester. I makes all of this work I did seem useless. It seems like nothing is actually worth the effort .

It doesn't hep that lately I have been trying to open up to my family about the way I feel, and its not working at all. My social skills on these topics are absolutely horrid.

I have no money to get help professonial help right now, and my family won't contribute...so I'm stuck waiting on money of a T (which will not happen in awhile).

I don't know its very confusing.

Dervish, happiness may be a virtue, but what makes me happy has been taken away it seems like.

either way , thank you all once again for trying to help. It means alot.